Thanks so much for all of your love and good wishes in the last day or so. I really do appreciate it so much. Still can’t quite believe it is happening but I suppose I will have accepted it by the time I get on to that hospital trolley.
Only 36 hours till that happens so trying not to think about it too much! On the whole I have been pretty good – still sleeping well every night and feeling pretty “zen” each day so am quite pleased with myself. The journalling, exersizing, going gently, painting, meditating routine is paying off – go me! This has been a six month program of preparation!
Tomorrow I go in to St Vincent’s and they inject radioactive dye into my breast so that by the time I get to the operating theatre on Wednesday, they can identify the sentinel lymph nodes and take them out to do a biopsy. These are the nodes that will show if there is any cancer elsewhere in my body (but we are NOT having that!) The chances are very small, so I’m not putting my mind there, and will just be pleased when the results come back (I think a few days later) and give me the official all clear. (Yes, I will be having a little party for myself then!)
Other than that, my bag is just about packed, and I will be having a very gentle day and evening tomorrow. It is also our 24th wedding anniversary so really, who would spend it any other way??!! My poor husband. Ah well, we can celebrate it when I get home from hospital …
Then I will be in to hospital for surgery for 10 – 16 hours on Wednesday, from about 8 am. I will be oblivious but I am feeling for my husband and the rest of my family. Yes, we will all be glad when it is over! Then I can just start the healing process.
On Thursday I am in intensive care all day so that they can check that the transplant is doing what it should – every 15 mins. Hopefully I will be drugged up and dozing through that whole bit.
In the meantime, my husband has been charged with posting blog updates until I am well enough to say something myself. Hopefully (for my sake!) not too many days until then.
With love and thanks again for all of the lovely warm wishes, texts, emails, messages and parcels. Yes, I know I am not alone, and it really does all help!